According to 1 Cor 13:
“……….and though I have the gift of prophecy, and understand all mysteries and all knowledge, and though I have all faith, so that I could remove mountains, but have not love, I am nothing. And though I bestow all my goods to feed the poor, and though I give my body to be burned, but have not love, it profits me nothing. Love suffers long and is kind; love does not envy; love does not parade itself, is not puffed up; does not behave rudely, does not seek its own, is not provoked, thinks no evil; does not rejoice in iniquity, but rejoices in the truth; bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things. Love never fails……….”
It’s a little wrap up from yesterday’s preaching. there’s more to it when it comes to actualize it to recent life though. Been contemplating it a lot since I almost forgot how to love warmly and unconditionally recently.
I do have some people i care about and and willing to give up my life for.. not many of course. let’s talk some of some of them.
Two small main circles group I have: my family and work environment as my second family.
I think I become a nightmare for my own family. easily get angered, easily get annoyed, difficult to handle, been pain in the ass, talk cruel and harsh….for i know that whatsoever cruelty I have done and been doing towards them, they will never stop loving me..but I forgot one thing, that they are my most precious ones. How could I treat them whom I value so much like that? be it they’re not being a perfect mother, a perfect sister, a perfect brother..am I the perfect one? am I being a good sister and daughter to them? ugh…really..I must get rid of this perfection thingy out from my head.
I’d give up my life for them, no need to argue that. what I must do now is to submit that willingness and love into real acts.
My small work environment..it’s been growing like brother-sister hood. my team mates (who happened only two haha!) always look up for me due to my sickness, endure me being mad and upset all the time, being moody and forgetful, show a never ending patience and support to any bad conditions I’ve been through, trying hard to understand every bit of me. Sometimes they beef about me being crazily stubborn and harsh though. it’s normal under such situation..but even so, I would still be harshly arguing and reasoning about they being careless, being slow, being stupid..yes..harsh indeed.
it’s a miracle for me to have them unconditionally loving me, since I’m fully aware that I’m one of such kind who’s difficult to be with.. no need to give them pressure as it’s already difficult enough to show me love and bear my gestures.
big weigh sigh..oh how i must return to the fold..